I have got a problem. Don't want to talk more about it to Alice. Don't know anyone else I can, really. So.
I see Maureen when I take jam to Moddey. I don't linger, don't pressure her to talk. She looks well, doesn't run screaming if she sees me, but I'm in limbo. I think of her every minute of every day. I know she's got to get used to being free, I know she never had one free choice in her life before you all helped her get out, but...
Look, you've been in the Order longer than I have. Have a muggleborn and a pureblood ever worked out if they started out knowing each other not free?
Merlin, this is impossible, isn't it.
Sorry to dump this on you but I'm hitting a ward here. Don't know if I should press on or give up. Don't know which would be worse. Not that pressing on would be pressing. Waiting, more like. Just more limbo.
Sorry. I'm a right mess just now. But if you have got any of those clever Slytherin thinky thoughts on the subject, I could stand to hear them.
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Date: 2014-04-29 01:41 am (UTC)I see Maureen when I take jam to Moddey. I don't linger, don't pressure her to talk. She looks well, doesn't run screaming if she sees me, but I'm in limbo. I think of her
every minute ofevery day. I know she's got to get used to being free, I know she never had one free choice in her life before you all helped her get out, but...Look, you've been in the Order longer than I have. Have a muggleborn and a pureblood ever worked out if they started out knowing each other not free?
Merlin, this is impossible, isn't it.
Sorry to dump this on you but I'm hitting a ward here. Don't know if I should press on or give up. Don't know which would be worse. Not that pressing on would be pressing. Waiting, more like. Just more limbo.
Sorry. I'm a right mess just now. But if you have got any of those clever Slytherin thinky thoughts on the subject, I could stand to hear them.